The Challenge

Ok, bear with me, my brain is going about 20 different directions tonight after working a closing shift at Universal (wait, what? When did I switch from Disney to Universal??? WELLLLLLLL……. Maybe that can be another post! But Universal is just a part-time job I started to have me not being bored in the summer while I’m not teaching!), so I felt the need to blog.

Anywho

Do you know the toughest thing about trying to get back on track while living in Florida? I had planned ALLLLLL day to go for a run once I got home from work because I knew I had extra energy (I slept in! Huzzah!!!), but of course it starts with a lightning storm as soon as I step out of work. I got done at 9:30, almost 3 hours ago. It’s still storming. And Florida is ALWAYS like this, I plan to run, and it rains as soon as I have a chance to go! 😦 Boo.

So, I’m doing a back up type of workout. Namely: cleaning, and quasi-packing for the big move at the end of next month! woot woot! πŸ˜€

So many things in my life you dear readers don’t know about because I’m a horrible blogger! So sorry about that!

 

So, about the title of this post (see? I told you… MIND. EVERYWHERE.)…. my mom has challenged Shaun (the boyfriend) and I to lose 25 pounds between the two of us by the end of this month. Which is really what helped kickstart this getting-on-track-again bit. I mean, we had planned to revamp our eating habits and start running training with it being summer and me not teaching anyway, but it gives us a good incentive.

this was us a year ago… in our Iron Man glory! And look at my pretty hair, I miss it 😦

 

andddd us back in May. I love and hate this picture. Love because, well BOBA FETT and hate because of how terrible I look!

 

we definitely have the weight to lose. My mom had us take pictures of our feet on the scale when we started and then we’re going to take pictures again at the end of the month. I can’t tell you where we’re at now though… our scale is broken. I mean, I don’t think I went from 237 to 102 in just over a week. That would be bad. And seeing as I still look like the girl in the Boba Fett picture (but with super short hair now), I don’t think it’s true.

It is kinda really sad that the only pictures we have of each other are actually only selfies because I hate seeing myself. The only reason this picture made it online in the first place was because of who we got to meet… my face is even blotchy from crying, a sight I would never allow on the web!

Goal: see this girl? She was in a size 12 just last April. This was me 70 POUNDS ago. I know i can do that and more.

 

I wore this blue dress a couple months back, and let me tell you it looked nothing like this on me. It barely covered my butt! But, I know I can get back to her again – a girl who was just starting to feel okay with herself and was on the way to being healthy.

Which is why I jumped at the chance of my mom’s challenge. Shaun wasn’t as keen, but I think that’s partially because this is his first time ever doing anything concerning weight loss besides a few runs with me. The poor boy.

 

So, in honor of the challenge… what are things you’ve found that work? That didn’t work? I’m trying to help Shaun understand what to eat and do and what’s bad (hard for picky eaters like us!), but it is definitely a struggle. Where were the little things you started with? If you were to start fresh, what would be your biggest goal?

 

 

I’m going to try to really use this blog again… it was a motivation for me when I could use it often. So hopefully I’ll get some of the pages up top updated with new things and whatnot. Stay tuned! πŸ™‚

~Courtney

I’m back! I swear!

AHHHHH I’m sorry! I really am! I wouldn’t be surprised if all of my followers left me 😦

If you didn’t notice from my last post… no, I didn’t fall off of the running bandwagon. In fact, I can cross a few things off of my Goals list you see above. I think I’ll do that at some point tonight since I’m trying to get my life updated. πŸ™‚

For those of you who don’t remember me (it’s been a while since a real post), I’m Courtney/Kortni, and I have been struggling/working on losing weight for a while now. This specific journey I’m on now started last November actually. Unfortunately, I did slack a bit towards the end of summer with student teaching and gained a good bit of my progress back on, but now I am back in full force.

And by full force, I mean my workouts since last Monday (day off) consists of:

  • Tuesday 10/16: 2.16 mile treadmill Interval run for 32:20 minutes, at 14:58 average
  • Wednesday 10/17: hour gym workout with a mile run on the treadmill.
  • Thursday 10/18: 2.60 mile interval run for 37:25 minutes, at 14:23 average
  • Sunday 10/21: 4.0 mile interval run for 57:12 minutes, at 14:18 average.
  • Today 10/22: hour at BodyStep with mom… almost threw up after, so you know how intense that was!

And I’ve done both my second MudRun and the 10 miler race in the past month. and started training for my half marathon in February.

 

AND GOT ACCEPTED INTO THE DISNEY COLLEGE PROGRAM FOR SPRING.Β 

So I will be moving to Florida on January 3rd, and moving into my apartment on the 7th, to work at Walt Disney World for 7 glorious months. I’m excited.

And nervous.

Oh so nervous.

To the point that I cry on my boyfriend’s shoulder/stomach/back/anywhere at least once a weekend in fear because there’s so many emotions going through me that I kinda explode when he’s around.

Because, the truth is, I’m the most upset about leaving him.

Part of me, the part that knows Dan and knows myself completely, knows that he and I will work it out and make it through. Dan’s told me this. To the point that he’s said (just as recently as yesterday actually), “Even if I’m not physically there, I’m always with you and I’ll be by your side every step of this. And cheering you on. Because I love you.”

But… there’s the part of me that is use to my past relationships, and that’s the part that likes to take over my brain and mess with my emotions and make me scared.

So that’s something I’m going through right now. Big time. And of course, that’s messing with my weight as well since I’m so stressed.

 

Another stress:

I made this for my students!

 

My life is controlled by 24 third grade students. It’s getting easier now that I’m into my solo weeks, but it’s still a scary, daunting thing that I’m doing every single day. I’ve at least come to realize thatΒ running helps. a lot. So, when I’m starting to feel overwhelmed, I just go for my training… or I throw in some other type of killer workout, like I did tonight.

 

I just wanted to give you a life update, and ramble for a bit apparently. I’m going to try to start updating more often for you guys, but of course I can’t promise too much. πŸ™‚

 

On a final note:

 

Another Update!!!

Don’t you hate when life kinda ruins your chances of doing things you want to, say like… updating your blog? Or going running?

Yeah, so do I.

I’m coming to the other side of my finals week (FINALLY), and since I’m elementary ed and at the end of my education… there’s no actual final exams in my classes, just projects. That are like 20-30 pages each. UGH. I’m so tired of looking at computers all the time now! lol.

But, I did give myself a break over the weekend and go to NYC with my bff for her birthday to see Newsies on Broadway (OMG AMAZING. I could do like 20,000 posts about the awesomeness, but I shall refrain!).Β  We walked all over Central Park for about 4 hours or so, including going to the zoo (I didn’t know there was a zoo in Central Park!), so that was a nice break from life.

But, last night finally found me back at the running track with Angel. And Saturday, we’re going to try to add a third lap around the track, which should get us to about 7 miles in one workout. I’m excited!!! Getting closer to the 10 miles we need for Disney in September. I think we’ve decided that we’re going to work on getting to the 10 miles first, and then we’ll work on the time we’re doing it in through interval and speed trainings. Right now, we’re still doing the whole run .1 mile, walk .1 mile interval, so we’re going to work on building that one up a bit too.

5 more months til my Disney race! I’m excited to see how all of this training works out for me by the end of it. πŸ™‚

BTW, a shoutout to my latest commenter: Gracie, thank you SO much for your kind words! I love it when people tell me I’m an inspiration, it means so much to me. πŸ™‚ Keep up the work, girlie.

 

Now, for an updated Courtney picture (one of the things trips to NYC is good for)…… DRUM ROLL PLEASE.

(In that AE bag is a new pair of workout capris! yay!!!)

:)

Let’s see, what do I have to update you all with (Hi, miss me much? lol)…. hmmm.

First and foremost, I want to thank EVERYONE for the congrats and the encouragement that you’ve been giving me, it means SO much to me. You have no idea. I’m still in complete awe of where I am right now… it’s insane to me that I’m back in the 170s, I never EVER thought I’d be here.

Second, I hope those who started my challenge I posed a few weeks back are continuing it, and growing stronger with it every time. I know I am… This past Saturday, I went to the park with Angel (Dan’s brother, Jerzy’s fiance… expect to hear her name a LOT more often now) to do our training for the ToT 10-miler in September. Angel’s running with me then, so it’s super helpful to have someone that I can fully work with who is trying for the same goal. Anyway, on Saturday we went to do our long-run interval training… and we alternated .1 running with .1 walking, back and forth. We ended up going 5.5 miles, it felt AMAZING.

But really… me, 5.5 miles. I’m still in awe of that one too.

 

Besides that, I’ve been doing homework non-stop. Seriously, I live at the table in my living room now, with all of my school books surrounding me. I have 8 projects due next week, and I’m going to Allentown/NYC for the weekend with Leah, so… they need to be done now.

I did, however, just make this:

 

Quite delicious.

Challenge – Week 1

Sorry I haven’t posted again!!! Today’s the first day I’ve been at work since last Friday (and the only day this week), so if that tells you how busy my week has been… ack!

I am currently on Day 3 of the second week of this challenge… I’ve decided to continue it on, and I invite everyone to do it with me! If you want, up your time more (I know that’s not a problem for all of us, the time… but, maybe you’re just getting into the swing and took the challenge for 20 minutes a day and are ready for an increase!) to 30 minutes a day instead of 20.

So, last weekend I pretty much killed myself at the gym (woo!). Saturday, I started my day with Zumba since class was cancelled, and used that as a warm up… and then went to the gym for 2 hours for an intense workout. Sunday, I was there for another hour, doing almost the exact same workout (though not as intense). It was insane!

Monday and Tuesday I kinda cheated a little (oops), and counted just walks as my exercise because my schedule was that messy… this is what Jury Duty does to you! But, I got back into it last night and went to the gym – by myself, gag – and kicked my own ass. This resulted in an increase in weights on multiple different exercises, and I was able to run a 12:37 mile on the treadmill. Without my inhaler. Like no inhaler help at all.

Which is big for me, seeing as my asthma is my biggest obstacle that I need to climb over. Usually, when I’m out doing my c25k runs, I have to pause for a few seconds so that my lungs won’t close up on me. I’m hoping that I can push myself through that and get it so I don’t have to stop at all anymore.

 

Well, how was everyone’s week 1? What did you do? What are you going to be doing this weekend to fight off Easter?

 

πŸ™‚

 

PS. I’m down past my pre-vacation weight!!! So, I’m now at 30.6 lost… next step: getting out of the 180s!

The Most Upsetting Thing to Happen Yet

I had one of the worst things happen to me yesterday. I had to go to the doctor’s for a physical check up (for student teaching. ick, I hate doctor offices!), and had to get on that dreaded scale they have there.

It said I was somewhere between 212 and 215.

26 pounds heavier than what my scale at home says.

TWENTY SIX. In other words, that scale says I haven’t done a single thing with myself at all.

How unmotivational. I wanted to burst into tears the second I saw it.

And when the doctor was asking me about my wellness, she went, “So tell me… how is your exercise? Do you go for walks when you get a chance?”

Blink. Blink.

“Oh, let me tell you it all! haha! I walk the dogs with my mom almost every morning, and I go to the gym about three, sometimes four, timesΒ a week. We start with a cardio warm-up, do a 40 minute weight training set – focusing on different parts of the body each day we’re there, and then we do a 20 minute cardio exercise. I’m also outside running a lot, about 4-5 times a week, because I’m doing the c25k program and training to run 10 miles in September.”

“Oh. Well… that’s fantastic.”

I think I shocked her. Though, not as much as when I told her I weigh 26 pounds less at home than I do here (and have worked very hard for those 26 pounds).

But yet… I still want to burst into tears because of what that stinking scale said. And I think its because I’m the person who sees the change less in myself. I feel like I haven’t lost anything, even though the scale says -26 and the inches say -21 so far.

This is what one of my Game On! teammates sent me just now about this (I emailed them about it right before I started this post, because I’m so upset…. I need to text Dan about it, he’ll curse the scale out and make me feel better lol): “Do NOT let that get you down!Β  I never ever look at the scale when I go to the Doctor!Β  I swear they do it to make us feel badly! All scales are different, and I just use mine for consistency!Β  Keep up the good work, and we have just have a few days left!”

It was so upsetting to see though… but I guess I just need to use it as fuel for my next few weeks of running. And I’m gonna need it… I start week 4 of the c25k program tonight after work. HALFWAY THROUGH!

Week 3

Today starts week three of the Game On! Diet for me… which means that next Wednesday is my last week of this diet, and that will be my last chance to lose anything major for Disney.

And, on top of it, yesterday started Week 3 of the c25k program… yes, I said I was going to start today but I didn’t. I was in such a bad mood when I came home from work yesterday, that I just put on my sweats and sneakers, grabbed my iPod, and went right back out the door. And it was 52 degrees outside, how can I possibly pass that up???

I couldn’t, obviously. πŸ™‚

And, I survived it. My first run of 3 minutes wasn’t too terribly bad, and in all honesty, I really enjoyed it and kinda wanted to keep running afterwards. Crazy, I know. The second set of runs hurt a lot more, and I was definitely struggling at the end… so I have a bit of work to do with this week, but I know I can make it through and get myself to week 4 (the halfway point! omg!).

This whole running thing is already starting to seem surreal… like, I’m making plans almost daily now to go out on a run. Not because I know it’s good for me and will help me drop weight, but because I like how I feel during and after. It calms me down a lot.

Speaking of the weight loss thing, again… this morning, while I was getting dressed (after I took a three minute shower… don’t know how I managed that!), I randomly looked in the mirror. And then I saw it. Staring at myself in my skivvys (how awkward), I noticed that the right side of my ribs/chest (essentially where the bra wraps around to hook in the back. See? Awkward) is a perfectly straight line. Smooth even. No more flab sticking out on top and bottom of my bra. It flows together perfectly. EEEEEEEEP. My left side is almost there, but it’s like 1/2 an inch behind or so. BUT, I noticed something. And that something was a big thing to me.

I told Dan last night that I don’t feel like I lost anything, even though the scale said I did. And he toldΒ me that you can totally tell and that I look great. πŸ™‚ Awww, he’s such a sweet boyfriend.

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